....is an interesting thing. Usually when I am worried about something my heart will beat faster and I will feel very anxious. I thought I was handling this trial without worrying. Funny thing is its surfacing in different ways. Although my spirit doesnt "feel" worried my body seems to be reacting all on its own. I cant sleep at night. I lay there starring at the ceiling and watching the clock. Two nights ago I succumbed to my insomnia and decided to do some sewing. Today I have this rash on my arm and I cant remember ever having a rash.
Today though I "feel" worried mostly because we are hitting our deadlines on a few bills, namely our mortgage. We have to have it paid by Friday. Even though there is the promise of money in the next few days, I am having a hard time believing it. Rob has had two bids put in and both we were told we had, then poof there gone. So I'm a little gun shy at this point. Rob is putting his motorcycle up for sale today, he was supposed to do it two weeks ago...but again we had a promise of money and I think he was hoping he wouldnt have to sell his bike.
We have been so blessed with the little things, food, money to pay smaller bills as they have come up. I see His work all around me...now we need His Miracle!
Mail man just left and there was no check....I think panic is starting to set in.