Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Worry....

....is an interesting thing. Usually when I am worried about something my heart will beat faster and I will feel very anxious. I thought I was handling this trial without worrying. Funny thing is its surfacing in different ways. Although my spirit doesnt "feel" worried my body seems to be reacting all on its own. I cant sleep at night. I lay there starring at the ceiling and watching the clock. Two nights ago I succumbed to my insomnia and decided to do some sewing. Today I have this rash on my arm and I cant remember ever having a rash.

Today though I "feel" worried mostly because we are hitting our deadlines on a few bills, namely our mortgage. We have to have it paid by Friday. Even though there is the promise of money in the next few days, I am having a hard time believing it. Rob has had two bids put in and both we were told we had, then poof there gone. So I'm a little gun shy at this point. Rob is putting his motorcycle up for sale today, he was supposed to do it two weeks ago...but again we had a promise of money and I think he was hoping he wouldnt have to sell his bike.

We have been so blessed with the little things, food, money to pay smaller bills as they have come up. I see His work all around me...now we need His Miracle!

Mail man just left and there was no check....I think panic is starting to set in.

12 comments:

Amity said...

Oh Audrey..I am so sorry you going through such hard times right now. I will keep you in my prayers...I wish there was something I could do to help you.
((hugs))

Amity

Michelle B. said...

Audrey,
I am so sorry that you are going thru this. We have been thru this also and God will see you thru it even though we can't always see how. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Robyn said...

I'm praying for you constantly.

I know it's hard not to panic; it's hard to have blind faith right now, but you need to take care of yourself and the baby. I remember going through extremely stressful times a few years ago, and my body reacted by breaking out in severe hives for weeks. I had to let go of some things and let God have them because I was making myself sick.

(((HUGS))) we're praying for you.

jrodges said...

Audrey :)
We are praying for your family.
I just wanted you to know that the song on your blog really ministered to me! ( the name just left me... all that I can give, my everything...) I lost my sweet friend from church, Jason Powell, in a horrific car accident last Friday (it was on the news :( ). We had a celebration of his life at our church yesterday. We are all choosing to Praise God and know that God promises that everything works together for His GOOD! I am believing this for your family also.
Thanks for the ministry that your blog has ;).

lisa said...

We went through something similar a few years back. God came through but it was in his time. It is so hard not to panic. I will continue to pray for you. I'm sure the money you need is coming it just hasn't quite arrived yet. Blessings to you and your family

Jamie said...

Lifting up your family in prayer! I love the song on your blog, "All That I Can Say", and am looking for a place to download it! Guess I'll just have to keep coming back here to listen to it!

Jamie S

Kysha said...

I know about deadlines, bills, and getting things turned off. God always comes through. He is so faithful. I have also suffered anxiety attacks which later led to my being placed on heart medication but I claim healing in Jesus' name. I'm agreeing with you in prayer that every need has been met in His name.

Stephanie said...

You're Welcome :-) I'm praying for you and your family. Keep up Hope...God NEVER Fails! Sometimes it may not be what we thought or planned and just when we are about to give up we see it and we know He was working on our behalf all along. Persevere and expect the unexpected!

rcsnickers said...

((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
I am extremely sorry you are going through this tough time. I pray that the money owed to you comes in and Rob's gets the bids on job. Wish their was more I could do.

:o) Rachel said...

Time to post again so we know how to pray for you!! God is in control!
:o) Rachel

Shannon said...

Wow...I just did a post on "worry" today and now I'm reading yours! Worry is a hard animal to tame, isn't he?
Oddly enough, money isn't anything I worry about anymore. I wish I could say it's because we have plenty, haha, but no. I have just seen so many times in past years how God really does not let your basic true need go uncared for. I fell under a deep peace about financial issues and realized that if some expenses are impossible or very difficult to meet, God probably doesn't want them in our lives. We almost lost our home, and I just thought, "well, if we lose our home, it's because God has another place for us to be that we can afford better!"

My worry goes to other stuff ;-)

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Oh that there were such an heart in them, that they would fear me, and keep all my commandments always, that it might be well with them, and with their children for ever! Duet 5:29