Thursday, June 26, 2008

Everything

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark Is creeping in
Creeping up To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give, thats my everything.

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember Where you sat it down

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all that I can say right now, I know its not much
And this is all that I can give, thats my everything!

I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that That was You washing my feet

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all that I can say right now, I know its not much
And this is all that I can give, thats my everything!

....thats my everything!

David Crowder Band "All I can Say"

This song is so very special to me. I'll never forget the time my Sweet Savior spoke to me so clearly. I have always believed in God, but due to my childhood/teenage years I was mostly just angry with Him. I was baptised when I was 23 and began my journey with Him.

I had alot of issues to deal with though, my mother leaving me as an infant, abuse, molestation, a step mother who loathed me as a young girl, so much loneliness. One day as my two children where sleeping and I was all alone on the couch reading scripture, I became so overwhelmed with emotion, so much grief and sadness. I asked Him flat out "why me, why did you allow all of that to happen to me?"

I will never forget His response. It was a clear, hot summer day. As I sat there I heard rain begin to poor down as hard as it could poor, and He said to me, as clear as day, " Everytime you cried, I was crying with you!" Then as quickly as it came the rain stopped. I forgave Him that day and everyone that had ever hurt me, it was all washed away.

I learned so much about Him in those few moments, His sweetness, His Love...so pure.

1 comment:

rcsnickers said...

(((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
Oh Audrey, your past is so extremely sad to hear about. But I am rejoicing that you have found God and forgiveness at the cross. That you can forgive those who hurt you. That you can forgive God's will in your past. It has made you who you are. You are leading your children to the cross and salvation. You are raising a family for God. You are an excellent Mama and wife! Others have a past like yours and no relationship with God to carry them through. I know because they are my relatives. May the Lord continue to lift you up andhe will hold your hand through it all. :)

Oh that there were such an heart in them, that they would fear me, and keep all my commandments always, that it might be well with them, and with their children for ever! Duet 5:29